forests always there

supernova!

fuck i feel so full to the brimm of inspiration and adoration. like my heart is overflowing and my soul is streaming out my nose holes.
i feel so distant from art though, like i spent 3 days around people so creative and trying to push this lil book of mine upon people, that i am too full of information to sort through it and try and translate it to ink and like and word.
you know? i want to badly to convey this feeling in my bones

i feel a lil like i want to bawl my eyes out, i feel so overwhelmed! not from sadness persay, more an overabundance of emotion

and gosh i can not say
in any descernable capacity
how much love ben sea (plump oyster) and mel stringer (girlie pains) have inspired in my heart
they took me under their wings and let me sit at their selling table
and fed me pizza and talked to me in funny voices
and saved me when i left my wallet somewhere with bus fare and warm smiles
and it makes me weep how sweet they are
i have never met old souls so soft and kind
and i am so proud of them and wish for so much happyness to come to them
because they make me so crazy effing happy

things worth mentioning
(and i write this with the idea that blogs are for the verbalisation and transition of memories into something that can be recalled later, even if the memory has faded)

-there was this stall for people who build their own r2d2 robots and stuff, and they were roaming throughout the place. confronted with the reality of a robot i was actually quite freaked out, id always thought id be pretty cool with them, having been influenced by scifi and such. at least they wernt sentient

-rock band was set up directly across us, which was good for viewing i guess. this one guy got up and he was very kurt cobaine esq, and he started making up his own lyrcis, ala "this is my life, behind the beehive". everytime i think about it i have to laugh, its just the most preposterous combination of words

- we saw the sillyest romance style mangas. the highlights were "flowers and bees" and "dont blame me" which had a picture of two effeminant dudes kissing on the cover

- a variety of rediculously cute little kids walking past. most notable was a lovely lil girl dressed as superwoman, she had the tinyest lil pig tails and the biggest brown doe eyes. also saw the most amazing poco rosso costume in existance (perhaps?)

- chewing hubba-bubba perpetually makes you feel like a renegade

- reading ben and mels comics on the bus home made me giggle so much

-i accidently told a girl it looked like james masters wanted to "fuck" her. i felt so rude immediatly after, who says stuff like that to strangers? to contextualise it was a comment about the photo she had got taken with him in which he was standing quite close and doing his (what i consider to be) well known fuck face.

- for some reason all the boys there smelt like tomato sauce.

- sewing felt heart badges for a slew of girls. i really enjoyed it if im being honest though towards the end i felt so anxious. people seemed to really appreciate the home made quality of them though, which made me feel so swell. one boy got what i assumed was usernames of him and his girlfriend (?) like, tom for alice, i thought it was the cutest thing in the whole fucking world. other requests and ones premade and sold - tony stark, dr. sheldon cooper, batman, miyazaki, wolverine, i <3 effy, i <3 pokemon, hit-girl, 4zzz,and i really cannot remember the rest AT ALL.

- while having a smokey stick mel and i overheard a group of three boys having a discussion in which the question was "if you could kiss any girl in the world who would it be?" which i thought was the cutest thing ever. the fact that they were discussing who to kiss as apposed to the more traditional who to have sex with. we didnt hear their answers but i would have been interested to have done so.

- talking to various artists! so fucking nice, everyone was so kind to one another and there was a really lovely spirit of comradery umongst the table holders i think. he stallholders perhaps not so much as the mostly worked for people selling books and such and wernt trying to sell things they had created themselves, but everyone was pretty kind to one another as a whole. it was so fascinating to see how other people approached the comic book making process (not that i do comics per say myself), there were so many different styles and methods, it was fascinating and inspiring! one group (two lovely ladies opperating under the name burgerforce) took photographs for each frame and then edited the photos in illustrator to make them stencil-esq. absolutly amazing.

-got to have a real life nerd chat with a nice fellow sitting at the comicboy studios table. its so rare i get to talk about comics with someone who isnt my friend jordaan (who is truly an amazing dude for such things in all fairness to him) it was secretly a hope of mine at the beginning of supernova that such a spirited conversation would occur. patrick and his lovely lady laura got caught in the crossfire unfortunatly, and even now to think of them standing there and listening to me spew forth "i like it in issue 35 of batman when robin does"* makes me cringe in my ribcage and so so embarissed.

- i realised also how much i talk about my good friend gel to other people. ive come to refer to her as my heterosexual life partner in my head which is fucking appropriate if all is taken into consideration. i feel like i didnt stop talking about her all weekend, which isnt a bad thing because she also fills my heart with happyness. she unfortunatly missed out on the occasion due to study, but she is truly my other half and partner in crime.

- patrick and laura visiting was so nice, to see a friendly face umongst the vieled and costumed crowd. laura bought so many zines and home made comics, it made me smile. also ghost world which is amazing. patrick purchased a pretty fucking amazing batman drawing which i hope to see on his wall at some point in the future.

- ben was obliging enough to paint a lil paper half face mask for me. there is a story that goes with this which basicly ends in i get too aware of my own face flesh sometimes, and having a tasty little viewshield will banish away those unnecissary demons

- meeting the nice and funny fellows from phatsville was delightful, and they were the most wonderful of table mates. i cant wait to start trying my pesky hands at this fandangled comic thing, i really hope i can one day submit something for the phatsville consideration. laying paverstones for the diy kids of the future.

so there i think thats that? fuck i am impressed
if anyone has come this far in terms of reading this monumental post.

in summation:

<3mammoi and pappoi<3

*dramatisation