Sunday, November 29, 2009

i am sorry if there is anyone out there reading this
who wishes to view things
that are sythesised from my brain pan
art wise.

i have bean very uninspired lately
or perhaps just lazy.
i find evrything so amazing sometimes that i feel like
there is no need for me to be amazing
when there are others out there already doing it
you know?

i will probably just be doing alot of picture posts
because i am really enjoying the internet lately.

and i am finally learning
that i am a tree and i "got a saw to cut off those dead limbs"

letting people go.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

these are things i find posativly amazing

omlette du fromage


you know how when your a kid for some reason or other
particular memories just stick with you
the eipsode of dexters labritory where he accidently falls asleep listening to a 'learn to speak french' tape and it gets caught on the phrase "omlette du fromage"
and then the next day thats all he can say

is one of those memories for me.

to this day it is still one of the few french phrases i know
and the most french phrase i ever spoke in french class

lomo self

i try not to indulge in the whole self obsessed culture and masturbation
that i think is inextricably intertwined with the whole myspace facebook photo thing.
but i felt desperatly like taking some photos this evening
and my world is so cramped at the moment
i feel like all that is in these bits and bones
is the only thing i can muster right now.

i quite like the first shot. eating fire spitting flames!

Sunday, November 22, 2009


Kaylee: Everyones got somebody. Wash, tell me im pretty
Wash: Were I unwed, I would take you in a manly fashion
Kaylee: 'cause I'm pretty?
Wash: 'Cause you're pretty.

i love firefly so much. it is one of the few shows i can watch again and again and again. sometimes my brain gets all explody forom how perfectly constructed a film serenity is also.

i promise to post something other then screencaps from shows soon.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

fan boys

i have never really encountered the fabled 'fan boy'. many a fan girl yes, but never a fanboy. i just dont really think dudes get obsessed about things as us ladies do sometimes. also it is possible
i am just not running in the right circles.

kevin smith is a totally rad dude.

Friday, November 20, 2009

time machine

"oh no!!! not fleshing eating morlocks!!!"

letting things go

my dog ruby died a couple of weeks ago
i think it bothered me more then i thought it would
animals are so much more lovely then people i find
so sincere and full of love!
i do not think i believe in heaven
but i think perhaps i would like to, so i may sleep knowing she is somewhere special

do i have something in my teeth?

this man is just far too brilliant.
i want nothing more
then to curl up with some green tea
and watch ace ventura
again and again.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

pictures like this
make me so unhappy.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

bright eyes

Bright Eyes - I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning

i used to listen to this abum everyday on the bus to and from school. Lua (one of the tracks) is probably one of the lovelyest songs ive ever heard. conor oberst has
such a way with words

some lyrics:

I know that it is freezing, but I think we have to walk
I keep waving at the taxis, they keep turning their lights off
But Julie knows a party at some actor's West side loft
Supplies are endless in the evening by the morning they'll be gone

When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend
I'll get a coffee and the paper, have my own conversations
with the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection
The mask I polish in the evening by the morning looks like shit

And I know you have a heavy heart, I can feel it when we kiss
So many men stronger than me have thrown their backs out trying to lift it
But me I'm not a gamble, you can count on me to split
The love I sell you in the evening by the morning won't exist

You're looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black
Just keep going to the bathroom, always say you'll be right back
Well, it takes one to know one, kid, I think you've got it bad
But what's so easy in the evening by the morning's such a drag

I got a flask inside my pocket, we can share it on the train
And if you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same
We might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain
But what was normal in the evening by the morning seems insane

And I'm not sure what the trouble was that started all of this
The reasons all have run away, but the feeling never did
It's not something I would recommend, but it is one way to live
Cause what is simple in the moonlight by the morning never is

It was so simple in the moonlight now it's so complicated
It was so simple in the moonlight, so simple in the moonlight
So simple in the moonlight...

Monday, November 16, 2009

self portraits

and old self portrait i took. amazing to think how much effort i put into things back then. with a shitty digital camera. i was so into the colour that red lamp made, i could spend hours taking photos with that thing.
i think peoples sense of what is a good self portrait can really tell alot about taht person. excluding the obvious.

i feel like everything and nothing has changed!

to think about the circumstances that surrounded my taking of this picture. my first experience, of being in love or lust with more then one person. i am so glad
i have grown up.

Sunday, November 15, 2009



never mind.

above picture by helani laisk, sleepyfeet on deviantart

Saturday, November 14, 2009

manchester orchestra

manchester orchestra are such an amazing band. i wanted to share this album with you. its called "Like A Virgin Loosing A Child". the above isnt the album cover, but tbh i dont really like the album cover and i wanted some sort of visual inscentive! so i just waked the above photo (not mine) into the olde photoshop and did some quick textures. below is the link to the album.

if you trust that i wouldnt recomend something that is not good, please download!

cause i confide in wolves at night

Manchester Orchestra - Like a Virgin Loosing a Child

Thursday, November 12, 2009

thoughts like broken cycles and reused mouth drips.
making cowards out of myself, and being wishfully wanton for the impossible and intangible.
like maybe this is a false sense of sensibillity, and i should just do all the things i am too selfish to ever care about.
maybe there is no bravery in sincerity.
i am so sick of these skin and bones
so fat on blood and muddy organs. and yet we raise this handfuls to bruised lips and open mouth again and again and again.
there is at least a sort of sensibleness in consistancy
even if it is poured from glass or spat to spare the rest of us the trouble
get gaunt.
be callow.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

i love you emotional breakdowns

here -- go again

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this is my last week
of bothersome things
nothing but wishful thinking and willful sleeping from then on out
but like usual
i am having trouble being motivated!
perhaps i will make more art or do something constructive.

and i have been thinking on folk alot
on their influence and affluence
on the way i percieve you
and the way i should percieve you.

if everyone would just send me a small note
on how they would like to be treated
i shall oblige accordingly.
sometimes i feel like i only hear the things people dont say
never the words they do

Monday, November 9, 2009

do things like this ever actually happen in real life?
romance outside of fiction
does not exist.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

dear allisandro

i made this lil bookie for a friend
whom lives so far away

its bean too long since i have posted some art!

if anyone is interested, i have a bunch of hand colour copies of this for sale.

in other news, why do so many people
fall prey
to those girls who are so fucking horrible.
just because honey may sometimes drip from her lips
does not exscuse the poison she spits

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Fashion Photography

so perhaps it is my tendency to develope male friendships more often then female ones, but sometimes i get very embarissed about liking extremly girly things like gossip girl. when i think on the topic more of corse i realise it is a silly thing to be embarissed about, so in honour of that notion i bring you a number of fashion photoshoots staring gossip girl actors.

i find fashion photography so intreguing sometimes! terribly concieted in some ways, but beautiful in others. i think it is perhaps feeble because it relys on the pre-existing beauty of the subjects, and very rarely brings out something in the subject that was not already planely visible. i of corse find other types of photography much more compelling, but much in the same way i can not help but adore gossip girl, i also adore fashion photography. its also worth mentioning that i find the whole perpetuity of materialism and superficiality completly repulsive in certain ways. like everything, i think without sincerity fashion photography can perhaps do more harm then good, but i do not dare pressume to push these opinions down your throat, no no no.

Ed Westwick and Leighton Meister for singapore Elle

i know its their job to look like theyre attracted to each other and all (as they are dating in gossip girl), but i actually adore the chemistry in these photos. such an amazing set

Taylor Momsen

something deep inside of me tells me i shouldnt like taylor momsen, but i just think she is so gosh darn pretty. even if she does seem like an extremly self obsessed person

in other news, i have alot of assesment this week
and my dog is getting put down tommorow
i wish you would come to my door
and give me a hug
i miss you.